There are days since I have been unemployed that I relish in my hermit-like tendencies. I will keep the shades drawn and not even think about getting out of my sweats until after lunchtime. I think about how little I miss the stress and demands of holding down a job and speaking in complete sentences. I bond with my friends of HGTV and utilize text messaging to keep in touch with the outside world. There is definitely a part of me that yearns to live in an experimental bio dome or on the international space station with limited social interaction.
But there are other days, the other side of me that wants to badly to have a purpose and responsibility again. Part of me that craves conversations with adult human people. Conversations that do not center around if the dishwasher is clean or dirty or how many diapers we have left. On these days I want a reason to shower everyday, to put on pants that aren’t jeans and feel like I contribute to our household.
Recently I have had many more of the later days than the former. Maybe it was because just a week and a half ago I was in the final running for three really good job opportunities. Thoughts of getting back into the work force and dusting off my black pants had gotten me excited and pushed my inner-hermit into the back seat. Now, I am down to one option, the other two being ‘very sorry’ and wanting me to know ‘it was a tough decision but…’ I am holding my breath and not going anywhere without my blackberry.
Yesterday, going completely stir crazy I decided that I needed to run errands that didn’t really need running, I just had to talk to people. Ironically after three different stops I never actually uttered a word. I pumped my own gas, I scanned my own groceries and spent some quality time with a drive-up ATM machine.
I wonder if I should call NASA and see if the space station needs a librarian.